you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine.

{Cola - Lana Del Rey}
 
DO U KNO HOW LONG I HAVE NOT BEEN ON DIS SITE?????????????????
 

 
omg u guys pray 4 me there is a boy at uni he is beaut i need all ur guys's magical powers 2 make him luv me <3333
 
wat sucks abt having an ex is watching him slowly by slowly have a gf thru fb it suckkkks so bad lol like go away ain't nobody wanna see u like ever at all lmfao
 
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♡ Pirate Joyce

{Radio - Lana Del Rey}
 
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Wow, really messy.
*Sigh
 
I liked the darker plum coloured scalloped shorts with the nude lace collared pleated shirt. Mix that with a bold-coloured blazer, and I think it's nice. Plus the boots. Yeah. Anyway.
 

♡ Pirate Joyce

{I'll Be Waiting - Adele}
 
Oh Adele, you know the feels, don't you? You know the exact fucking feels and you can turn it into songs for all of us to relate to.
 
Sorry I haven't been updating. I'm going through a break-up right now, or, well, I've just been broken up with and I'm feeling withdrawal symptoms of unwanted love and depression, and it is affecting everything I do, like, I've probably lost a couple pounds and just today, I bleached my frickin' hair. Like, I don't look a mess, but I've been feeling really shit the past couple days, so I do apologise. I don't even listen to music anymore, my life is miserable. Sorry, didn't mean to spill it out, but writing about it has been the only thing keeping me the tiniest bit sane. AND UGH if Gabriel hadn't broke things off, it would have been our 27 months today. :((((((((
 
~~~
 
no event (ana's not going to the event on this day) | august 18th
 

 
Her breaths were catching up with him. Each moan she let out was yet another trigger for him to keep wanting it, to push inside her with all his strength and finish.
 
“Simon!” she screamed, her nails carving into his sweating back, her voice squeaky and rushed. She groaned uncontrollably and he sighed madly with her, pressing himself inside her for the last couple of strokes that really counted, and then he stopped, both of their lungs working to the maximum, their mouths dry from all the huffing.
 
He flipped on his back, staining his sheets with his sweat, looking dazed and tired. “I'm so glad you came, Ana.”
 
She looked at him, her eyes up in disbelief. Then they both laughed at the joke he just unknowingly placed himself into. “Oh, you know what I mean. I'm glad you came by today.”
 
“Me too, Simon.” She got up quickly to use the bathroom and then changed. For the last five days, she and Simon were busy with fittings, back and forth to their homes and to their clients. Simon's flat was much closer to their separate fittings and castings, so he let her keep some of her clothes in one of his unused drawers. Needless to say, it looked as if there might be something between them besides friendship and sex.
 
Ana came closer to Simon who was sitting up on the bed putting his shirt on.
 
“C'mere, you,” he said, grabbing Ana by the waist and pulling her close to him. His face angled upwards and Ana leaned down to kiss him on the lips. “You are cute in just your underwear. You should just go out like that always.”
 
Ana managed a chuckle. “Always? Wouldn't you be jealous of all the men who will stare?” She lifted a brow.
 
“Not at all, because I know they won't compare to me,” he answered proudly.
 
Still, something in that sentence made Ana feel uneasy. She left his arms and prodded towards the dresser and put on her Rag & Bone shorts. “Come on, we should get riding before the clouds come in groups.”
 
//
 
Simon lived in New York. Most, if not all, of Ana's castings were in New York, of course, one of the fashion capitols in the world. Even though NEXT Model Management was her LA agency, stopping by in New York and staying at Simon's after a fitting gave her an excuse to visit Donny from time to time. Not that she was all too thrilled with seeing him, since, like Siri, he would always remind her how many weeks or months she had left until her passport expired. It wasn't the highlight of her day to see him, but she did miss his sass.
 
“Ana V, you look way too calm for a girl in your situation.” He shook his head disapprovingly.
 
“Well, it's nice to see you, too, Don,” she greeted as she hugged him. Simon and Ana rode their bikes to the IMG agency so Ana could stop by.
 
He cracked a smile. “God, I missed you. And it's nice to see you, Simon.”
 
“Thanks, you as well.” Simon nodded in acknowledgment. It was a little awkward for the both of them because Simon's New York agency was Soul Artist Management and IMG wanted Simon signed with them in the beginning of his modelling career, but he chose another agency. “I'll have to use the restroom now, excuse me.”
 
As Simon left the main room, Donny waved his hand like a fan around his face. “Oh honey, you are NOT doing Simon Nessman!” He rolled his eyes in ecstacy.
 
“There's a lot we haven't been catching up with together.”
 
“Obvi!” He giggled, then stopped short and came closer, his voice hushed. “Is this for real, though? Like, is he the one?” His eyes widened infinitesimally.
 
Ana bit her lip and gave him a confused look. “I really don't know, Donny, but we connect.”
 
Donny quieted his voice further so that the other staff wouldn't overhear. “Is that connection going to get you married in a few weeks, Ana V?”
 
Ana shrugged, looking almost as worried as Donny.
 
“The time is ticking. If you can't find a husband soon, say bye-bye to Givenchy.”
 
//
 
Ana left the building more worried than she thought she'd be. They went to Central Park so they could relax, but Ana wasn't sure it would help much. Simon found a bench to sit on overlooking the lake, and Ana walked off to the side to talk to Siri for a while. As she hung up, she paused mid-stride before reaching Simon, whose back was facing her.
 
Is it him? she asked herself. Is he the one? Will I take those steps to the altar with him?
 
Doubt started creeping onto her neck and tried to drown her in questions. Simon was adorable—he was a really good guy. But what was to become of them?
 
“You alright, sweetheart?” someone asked. A very familiar voice. So familiar, Ana heard it every night in her dreams.
 
She turned around and, of course, there he was, the nameless man with the tall figure standing before her. She wrinkled her nose.
 
“What?” he asked at her expression, coming closer.
 
“I really need a nickname for you. I honestly can't be bothered to remember your name.”
 
He put a hand on his heart, feigning disappointment. “Ouch. That hurt a bit.” She rolled her eyes. “What brings you to the Big Apple?”
 
“Business. Fashion week is soon, you know,” she replied.
 
“Ah, yes. Ana V, the strutting model.”
 
Ana smirked. “Business for you too, I assume? Or do you just travel the States to look for a hobby other than following me around?”
 
“Ha, following you around? What makes you say that?”
 
“I don't know,” she said, “maybe because I've been seeing you far too often.”
 
“And I thought we might have been friends once.” There was a hidden delivery with the way he said “friends” and “once” that he made sure she got, which gave her small shivers in the back of her neck. “You're not glad to see me right now?” The look on his face was immaculate; full of cockiness and playfulness, but not overdoing it. It was like Ana's first impression of him at his beach party.
 
As Ana was about to give him a smile, Simon came along. “Ana, is everything okay? You were gone for a long time.”
 
Both Ana and Eden looked his way, a bit out of sorts from him interrupting their conversation. “Oh, sorry, uh, Simon, this is...” Ana looked curiously at the man in front of her, still unsure of his name.
 
“Uh, Eden Robertson,” he finished for her, giving her a demanding look before shaking Simon's hand.
 
“Eden, right.” Ana pursed her lips and nodded. “And Eden, this is my...” She stopped herself immediately. She wasn't sure what her and Simon were, in all honesty, but what stopped her was that she didn't want Eden to think they were associated intimately, which confused her as to why she would have that thought.
 
“Simon,” he introduced himself, not catching Ana's hesitation. It was then that Ana noticed Simon's hand was around her waist as he shook Eden's hand. “Yeah, I remember you at the party—Ollie's party.”
 
So much for Ana not wanting to associate herself with Simon in front of Eden. Of course he'd seen them together at the party—the first time Simon and her got in bed together.
 
“Ah, yes, I thought you looked familiar,” Eden said in return, his eyes focused on where Simon's hands were. “Well, I'd better be heading off. You two enjoy your afternoon.”
 
“Thanks, man, you too,” Simon welcomed.
 
Before he turned to walk away, Eden faced Ana. “You know, you should really learn my name. It'd be a little less hurtful the next time we see each other.”
 
Ana tilted her head slightly to the side. “And what makes you think we'll see each other again?”
 
Eden didn't answer, instead just smiling assertively, his eyes seducing her in the most unnoticeable way, then walked off.
 
“Hmpf.” Ana turned to walk back to the bench with Simon, but couldn't help but look back, only to see Eden doing the same.
 
- Ana
 
~~~~
 
Type “eight” if you read all that.
So this basically explains where Ana's been, why she hasn't been very many places/events, etc. And I'm looking at Simon Nessman interviews on Youtue to get a better depiction of him so I can write about him and omfg he is really fucking adorable like I'm going to hate myself because I'll have to break his heart in the story >.< And that picture of him in the set ugh.
Anyway, I might not be writing too much. Basically, I'm the happiest I've been since the “break-up” so that's why I feel a /little/ bit of inspiration to write, but I'll go back to my dark hole soon enough :/
 
So please, don't hesitate to include Ana in your stories, etc. Thanks.
 

♡ Pirate Joyce

but,
 
DEAR POLYVORE
 

a suggestion;
 
it was better off when the "edit" under the title of the set was only to edit the description instead of editing the contents of the set. A separate button to edit the set would make things easier.
 
idk if other ppl agree, but that's my opinion.
 
amen.
 

♡ Pirate Joyce

{Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus}
 
Oh-k, before you hate on this, I have big news.
 
I had a legit one-shot convo with the real Miley Cyrus on tumblr. I am kidding you NOT. I fan-mailed her what I thought of her (don't worry, they were awkward compliments) and she took the time to go on my blog and fan-mail me back a sincere thank-you reply. [: And before you go off asking me what her tumblr is, I will not tell you because reasons.
 
I used to love Miley when Hannah Montana was just beginning; we were both 13 years old. I remember crying over it because I wanted to be famous and talented like her (back when I wanted to be a singer/actress). Then the show dragged on and it got too ridiculous for me.
 
Then Miley grew up and started wearing booty shorts and smoking Salvia lol. I hated her a lot then. I thought that her cheeks were too chubby, I didn't like her face, I didn't like her annoying voice.

But I realise now that she's just like me. Hell, at my age now, all I wear is shorts too short for me (but I live in Hawaii, too, so it's no big deal), and I experiment with drinking from time to time and I'm growing up just the same, so it isn't right for me to judge her because she's doing exactly what I'm doing, just in the public.
 
Lately, I've been seeing her street style on tumblr a lot and I really grew to like it, even if I was still a little disdainful towards her. But now it's meaningless to dislike her for those reasons alone, so now I don't mind her at all. Plus, she replied to me on tumblr, so that's a bonus lolololol.
 
I think she's becoming a really beautiful woman and her and Liam are, like, so cute. I read part of the interview for the Marie Claire photo shoot (in the set) and she says that she plans on having a long engagement and her and Liam both agree on this. I think that's admirable, because, hell, I'd like to be engaged right now to my boyfriend hehe, even though I know it's not going to happen for like a billion years, but I honestly understand that we are young and if you have someone you love, then you have to hold on to them. I resemble her situation in an otherworldly way. Her and Liam went through a couple break-ups and Gabriel and I have done so as well, but we both want to be with each other (hopefully lol), and it's not bad if you want to get engaged young, just as long as both of you know the road you're crossing in the long run.
 
I dunno, I just have this newfound respect for her. I dunno about the future, but right now, she's okay with me. (:
 
Ugh, it still concerns me that I am making this set to semi-dedicate it to Miley and it is 1 am and I have to clean the house & go to work tomorrow omg.
 
But anyway, I really like this outfit, this photoshoot, this set I suppose, and this is pretty much the only song I like of hers teehee. Plus, I thought it was appropriate because of the Olympics, WHEEEE~~~
 
OH, and did my Swarovski set get Top Set because it has like 500+ likes and that doesn't happen unless Poly does something about it. o__o
 
Anyway, HELLO.
I had a lovely weekend. [:
 

♡ Pirate Joyce

{Fences - Paramore}
 
SORRY I HAVE NOT BEEN ACTIVE.
I just finished season 2 of Misfits at like 1:20am this morning. Soooo good. So good. Omfg.
 
AND WHAT HAPPENED TO POLYVORE IT KEEPS CHANGING UUUUGHHH
 
OH AND I GOT MY TATTOO LAST WEEKEND WOAH GUYS
https://p.twimg.com/AzpINW5CUAEttFt.jpg:large
 
Don't worry, it has a meaning. It's not some stupid tatt I got cuz I thought it was pretty. -.-
 
Anyway this is a filler story.
I'll try to make the "la la land" premiere story today.
 

no event | july 7th
 

Ana's favourite thing to do was bike around LA; the exercise she got from it was a bonus, but she mainly did it for therapeutic purposes. It helped her calm her mind and it forced her to take a look around her and understand the world from different perspectives. It was her escape.
 
Unfortunately, her bike had a flat tire, so she instead walked through town, backpack included, and took pictures on her camera like a silly little tourist.
 
It wasn't until she got to the park that felt the vibration from her backpack, signaling that someone tried to contact her through her iPhone.
 
She got two new messages: One from Siri that said “i hope ur looking 4 a groom rite now. u've got 3 mnths till u get deported!!!!” Ana rolled her eyes. She appreciated Siri's efforts and pushing her about this, but Ana was getting tired of all this hustling around for a husband. A challenge, she had once thought, but it was defeating her. She was getting tired of drinking away her troubles and fucking any one of the male species just so she could get turned down and left behind. She didn't want to tell them why she needed to get married, they'd think she's even more crazy, or they'd yell at her to go back to her motherland, or worse, they'd tell gossip columns and everything would change. She'd get dropped from her runway shows until she moved back to Russia and it would stain her perfectly good image. Sometimes she thought she'd be better off to move back to Russia, but she loved it too much in the States to go back, even for a little while.
 
She sighed and went on to the next message. Surprisingly, it was from Simon; “hey ana wat r u doin 2nite”
 
Ana couldn't help but smile. She had always thought Simon had the cutest personalities. He was one of the nicest guys she knew, too, and of course he was handsome. It was nice to have someone actually want to hang out with her, considering her last few weeks. Ever since her break-up with Franco, actor-friends have been shying away from her because she couldn't keep a relationship for more than a few months.
 
But it was only because they got too comfortable. Ana's relationship philosophy is that when both sides get too comfortable, the relationship will go downhill from there. They go through normal routines and nothing new or exciting happens on a regular basis. Their relationship might still make them feel good, but they're both stagnant and don't think about moving further than that. Once her boyfriends call her a pet name, it's a sign to her that they've been too cosy with each other, so she breaks up with them at that point. It took Franco the longest to start calling her “babe.”
 
Perhaps Ana could do something different this time. Maybe going out with Simon, a fellow model, would help them connect more. They'd both be very busy with fashion shows and photo shoots, but there might be a possibility that he would understand her philosophy more, since he isn't a homebody actor. Perhaps she could try.
 
Ana texted back: “yea i do. u & i are hangin out ;)”
 
And as she sent the text message, she couldn't help but think about that man she had met at his beach party. What's his name again?
 
- Ana
 
~~~
 
Type “seven” if you read all that!
I'm getting to the point where Eden & Ana are gonna /reeeally/ get into their storylines soon, I promise! And by the way, @young-grasshopper, I'm up for some drama between Eden, Ana, & Parker! PM ME! :D
 

♡ Pirate Joyce

{How You Like Me Now? - The Heavy}
 
Rachel McAdams: I am in love with this woman. She is so perfect and gorgeous and beautiful and flawless. Srsly, she's one of my favourite celebrities EVUAR.
 

Credit to @luxecouture for the layout and inspiration. ♥
 

I now strive to be a better Polyvore-set-maker. Every set I make, I will make for the Polyvore homepage. Wheeeeee~~~~
 

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♡ Pirate Joyce

{This is What Makes Us Girls - Lana Del Rey}
 
what: bellamy’s birthday
when: august fifth
place: her house
attire: old hollywood
other: start the month off right with a huge birthday bash for the former nick star. though after what we’ve been hearing about her, it might be wise to expect something a little crazy.
 
Included @coriiiii and @nifty-nikki's Mike.
 

Ana woke up to a curly-haired boy that she could faintly recognise with his face up against the pillows. She lifted her upper body, looked around, saw her stained Givenchy dress, and remembered everything from last night.
 
It was not the first time she had slept with a male model, but it was the first she'd slept with a good friend. Usually, she wouldn't talk to her one-night-stands, and she also didn't sleep with a man more than once unless they had become her boyfriends afterward, so she didn't know what to think about waking up next to Simon Nessman.
 
But that isn't too true—there was /one/ man she had bed with more than once...
 
“Good morning, Ana,” he greeted groggily, wiping the dirt from his eyes and lifting the sheets off of him.
 
“I didn't mean for this to happen, Simon. Sorry,” she said.
 
He chuckled. “Don't be. I had fun last night.” That made Ana smile. At least she knew her value in bed. “So I'll see you... in Paris, maybe? I assume you and I are both booked for fashion week?”
 
Ana nodded. “I'll see you, then.”
 
//
 
Bellamy Black's birthday invitation in hand, Ana walked up to her doorway and knocked. She only knew Bellamy as acquaintances, but surprisingly got an invitation. The rumours surrounding Bellamy weren't showing her in the best light, but Ana loved making new friends, plus she wasn't too busy that day, so she decided to head down for a few hours and socialise.
 
The door opened and a security guard—or maybe a body guard—opened the door and made sure Ana was on the list before letting her inside. The birthday bash was themed with “old Hollywood vintage,” so Ana did her best to resemble that without being too classic and straying from her usual modern style.
 
“Welcome, Ana V, glad you could make it!” Bellamy greeted, all glammed up in her best attire, not too unlike Ana herself, but definitely showing off her personal style.
 
“Thank you for inviting me, Bellamy.”
 
“Oh, please, call me Bells.”
 
Ana smiled. “Bells. Well, happy birthday! I'm excited to be here.”
 
After greeting a few other people she knew at the party, she settled on a comfy couch and looked at the interesting pole in the corner.
 
“Looks like it's begging you to play with it,” she heard a man say behind her, making her jump a little. He laughed. “Didn't mean to get you excited,” he teased.
 
“You didn't excite me,” she corrected, his eyebrows lifting. “I just didn't expect someone to whisper behind me.” She unwrinkled her high-waisted skirt, which was a little too high, considering Ana's prominent long legs.
 
He took a few gulps of his beer, pointing at the pole she took notice of earlier. “Why don't you give it a try?” he insisted, obviously a little drunken already.
 
Ana shook her head. “Sorry, I don't do stripper.”
 
“That's alright, I bet you do well without the moves.”
 
It was if he was trying to flirt with her, Ana thought, but couldn't be too sure if he wasn't just being an a.sshole.
 
“Do I know you?” she asked a little condescendingly.
 
“Mike; you might have heard of me,” he answered.
 
“Mike. Very specific. I've definitely heard of you,” Ana said sarcastically, wanting to go outside and have a little smoke. Instead, Mike sat next to her, putting his hand around the back of the couch where she was sitting.
 
“You look familiar, too, actually. Actress?” He leaned in forward.
 
“Model, actually. Why do people always ask me that?” Ana knew her facial features were too unique to be likeable by a large crowd; not commercial enough for acting. Plus, her legs would definitely give it away.
 
“Model, huh? That's alright, I've been with models before. You're kind of cute.”
 
Ana rolled her eyes. “Are you going to marry me before you bed me?” she asked upfront to sort of ward him away from her. She had enough experience to know that men and marriage did not go hand-in-hand.
 
“You're a funny little thing, aren't you?”
 
“Little?” she asked. “I might just be taller than you, Mr. Mike. And I think I'll just use my legs now to grab me some food, excuse me.” Ana got up, but not before Mike took his hand and placed it under her skirt, just below her where hear underwear was placed, then pinched her a.ss.
 
Once Ana got to the counter, she found any food she could get her hands on and stuffed her face. The last thing she wanted was to attract yet another man and have them bother her.
 
- Ana
 
~~~
 
This is just a filler story. Sorry I haven't been writing. Been real busy, but I've been keeping up with stories and such.
Le boyfriend~ is moving to Oahu tomorrow.
Our last night together TONIghT ;________________;
 
Anyway.
Type “six” if you read all that!
 

♡ Pirate Joyce

{Tomorrow's Bad Seeds - Only For you}
 
Sometimes the world just sparkles with sunshine and rainbows. Show blogger Jordan Reid of Ramshackle Glam what inspires you to hope.
 
My flawless style inspires me.
Like I wish I could afford that.
Honestly.
I would wear it in a heartbeat.
And I would boost my blogspot and become a popular fashion bloggers.
Seriously, I would do that.
 
I would be like the next MissPouty. Who is in this set. She's so fab. I loooove that scalloped dress of hers. One of my favourites. I want to buy it but it's like $60 bucks and it's only one size and I am tiny. o_o
 
♡ Pirate Joyce

{Summertime Sadness - Lana Del Rey}
 

Polyvore has definitely changed my life. When I started back in high school ~three years ago, I mixed and matched all of my clothes in a "random" way. I didn't care for styles or trends. Not only because I couldn't afford it, but because I didn't really get what being "in" was all about. I was always the weird girl in school.
 
Because of Polyvore, I've started blogs about fashion, and it was only a year or so ago that I realised why fashion was so important. I understood the hard work put into the intricacies of each design, and it inspired me to blog about the models, the designers, and the shows. I started thinking about how I would design a certain outfit and how I would craft it.
 
I've started reading about the new trends and what the designers were getting into. I found a new love for the models that showcase the talent, and I noticed ways in which I could be fashionable without having to spend a year's worth of money on a single pair of shoes.
 
So thanks to Polyvore, I am aware of the fashion industry and the impact it has in our culture. We look to fashion to explain our personality without having to speak, and it is a great way to release a different kind of art around the world. Plus, I have discovered and met amazing and interesting individuals along the way. (:
 
And sorry that was like a novel to read, but I really love Polyvore. Without it, I wouldn't have a closet full of goodies. ;P
 
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♡ Pirate Joyce
 

Top Set for Aug 2nd, 2012: http://www.polyvore.com/top_sets_for_aug_2nd/collection?id=1755892